Let me speak on this....
I know everyone thinks I'm nothing more then a giant mouth. I talk a lot and act like I have no feelings. Well let me dispel the rumors, I do. This I've only found out about recently, and just like you I am surprised. Never in my life have I dropped more then a couple tears over spilt milk, but this time around I feel like one of those fountains with the kid pissing the water, only its coming out of my eyes. It sucks so bad because I don't WANT to be like this, but it just happens sometimes I guess.
If you didn't already know, my girlfriend of over 5 and a half years took off. This isn't breaking news or anything but due to some recent events I felt the need to put it in writing. Women are insane! They spend years of their lives saying how guys are assholes and they don't care. Well let me tell you, as I have been dealing with this, I have talked to quite a few people who have gone through the exact same thing. How do women EVER expect men to no be assholes if all they ever do is FUCK with your emotions.
I know I did a lot wrong over the years, A LOT, but at least I can admit it. After how many years of my life I spent with HER, I can honestly say she never felt at fault for anything. I always apologized for arguments or for anything that went wrong. And while we were together that was OK. I don't mind mending problems even if they weren't my fault. But looking back on it, and after getting lectured by her afterwards about this that and the other thing, then I REALLY get mad thinking "well I tried to always HALT problems!" I always tried to not let problems even extend overnight. I liked to quash them b4 we went to sleep. I never left the house angry and I tried not to let her leave the house angry. I always tried to fix the problem wetter it was my fault or hers. I'm not saying im a great guy, or even a good one for that matter, BUT in my defense I didn't enjoy fighting, it just sort of happened A LOT. I know fighting is what shows a relationship is healthy, and it never was SO BAD that we split up. Hell even the final break wasn't over a fight.
I just don't understand...WHAT do I have to do. I have to move on? Well I can only do what my mind tells me to. At first, I didn't want to give in, I didn't want to let this happen. I tried and tried and tried and tried to no avail! And now Im finally trying to move on, Im hanging out with other people, I finally have REAL female friends which I avoided doing the past 5 or so years. Im sure she would tell you differently, because women always think you're cheating, but I did not. I had some female acquaintances but I hardly ever saw them and hardly ever talked to them. Its nice to finally have some estrogen in my presence that's NOT fighting with me. So I move on (kind of) and have finally stood up for myself and tried as hard as I can NOT to initiate contact of any kind. After New Years eve I talked to her and that was about the last time I called her or heard from her until last week. Out of the blue she calls me just to shoot the shit. We have a great conversation about whatever and that leads to an invite for lunch. She tells me to call her the next morning for lunch, and ya of course NO RESPONSE the next day. Whatever, I move on. Don't call her all week then BAM like clockwork last Friday she starts txt messaging me out of the blue. Just asking what's going on. LIKE LAST WEEK NEVER EVEN HAPPENED. O well, im a bigger man, I will just act normal, of course it leads to another invite for a cup of coffee, which falls through because she has to work that night. No biggie, but she says, call me Sunday we will do something. I try not to get my hopes up because im pretty sure it will fall through, but sometimes your mind takes over. Of course yesterday no response so I simply send a txt saying, "I don't know why I get my hopes up on this stuff". What happens next is simply too much to type. All I know is, I hope she was far far away from her cell phone when HE started sending me txt messages pretending to be her.
Im not going to go into detail, but I will be the bigger man in this situation. I got very mad yesterday, and drank my anger away. I've been doing that a lot lately and I don't really like it. I've never been much of a drinker, but now that I have at least 3 bottles of vodka in my fridge minimum, I know its starting to get worse. I wouldn't call myself anything close to an alcoholic, I don't drink because I like to, and I don't even come close to drinking everyday. But to me, getting drunk 2-3 times a week is a hell of a lot more then I have in the past, so I feel like its increasing. Now I don't want to pinpoint the drinking on recent occurrences, but lets just say it isn't helping.
What am I supposed to do? Remove her from my life all together? I have tried, baby steps....Weeks at a time! And all I get for my time is a call from her and SHIT from her new "ROOMATE". I think I may need to just not answer her calls, or anything....But its so hard.
well this blog is getting WAY too long and way to sappy.....Let me know what you think?
If you didn't already know, my girlfriend of over 5 and a half years took off. This isn't breaking news or anything but due to some recent events I felt the need to put it in writing. Women are insane! They spend years of their lives saying how guys are assholes and they don't care. Well let me tell you, as I have been dealing with this, I have talked to quite a few people who have gone through the exact same thing. How do women EVER expect men to no be assholes if all they ever do is FUCK with your emotions.
I know I did a lot wrong over the years, A LOT, but at least I can admit it. After how many years of my life I spent with HER, I can honestly say she never felt at fault for anything. I always apologized for arguments or for anything that went wrong. And while we were together that was OK. I don't mind mending problems even if they weren't my fault. But looking back on it, and after getting lectured by her afterwards about this that and the other thing, then I REALLY get mad thinking "well I tried to always HALT problems!" I always tried to not let problems even extend overnight. I liked to quash them b4 we went to sleep. I never left the house angry and I tried not to let her leave the house angry. I always tried to fix the problem wetter it was my fault or hers. I'm not saying im a great guy, or even a good one for that matter, BUT in my defense I didn't enjoy fighting, it just sort of happened A LOT. I know fighting is what shows a relationship is healthy, and it never was SO BAD that we split up. Hell even the final break wasn't over a fight.
I just don't understand...WHAT do I have to do. I have to move on? Well I can only do what my mind tells me to. At first, I didn't want to give in, I didn't want to let this happen. I tried and tried and tried and tried to no avail! And now Im finally trying to move on, Im hanging out with other people, I finally have REAL female friends which I avoided doing the past 5 or so years. Im sure she would tell you differently, because women always think you're cheating, but I did not. I had some female acquaintances but I hardly ever saw them and hardly ever talked to them. Its nice to finally have some estrogen in my presence that's NOT fighting with me. So I move on (kind of) and have finally stood up for myself and tried as hard as I can NOT to initiate contact of any kind. After New Years eve I talked to her and that was about the last time I called her or heard from her until last week. Out of the blue she calls me just to shoot the shit. We have a great conversation about whatever and that leads to an invite for lunch. She tells me to call her the next morning for lunch, and ya of course NO RESPONSE the next day. Whatever, I move on. Don't call her all week then BAM like clockwork last Friday she starts txt messaging me out of the blue. Just asking what's going on. LIKE LAST WEEK NEVER EVEN HAPPENED. O well, im a bigger man, I will just act normal, of course it leads to another invite for a cup of coffee, which falls through because she has to work that night. No biggie, but she says, call me Sunday we will do something. I try not to get my hopes up because im pretty sure it will fall through, but sometimes your mind takes over. Of course yesterday no response so I simply send a txt saying, "I don't know why I get my hopes up on this stuff". What happens next is simply too much to type. All I know is, I hope she was far far away from her cell phone when HE started sending me txt messages pretending to be her.
Im not going to go into detail, but I will be the bigger man in this situation. I got very mad yesterday, and drank my anger away. I've been doing that a lot lately and I don't really like it. I've never been much of a drinker, but now that I have at least 3 bottles of vodka in my fridge minimum, I know its starting to get worse. I wouldn't call myself anything close to an alcoholic, I don't drink because I like to, and I don't even come close to drinking everyday. But to me, getting drunk 2-3 times a week is a hell of a lot more then I have in the past, so I feel like its increasing. Now I don't want to pinpoint the drinking on recent occurrences, but lets just say it isn't helping.
What am I supposed to do? Remove her from my life all together? I have tried, baby steps....Weeks at a time! And all I get for my time is a call from her and SHIT from her new "ROOMATE". I think I may need to just not answer her calls, or anything....But its so hard.
well this blog is getting WAY too long and way to sappy.....Let me know what you think?
posted by MikeJaret at 9:44 AM
6 Comments:
1) If you're finding women that do nothing but bitch and moan then you're finding the wrong women. Yes women have their problems but there are plenty out there that are not bitches. Regardless of how good the 'prune flavored tang' is if she is a bitch then fuck her and leave her. Period.
2) Stop drinking.
3) Beat off instead.
4) I would key that fuckers car if I were you. Calling him immature would be fucked up on my part since I'm telling you to key his car but a man has got to have his pride and doing what that ass-hat did is an attempt to rip it away. Key his car and sleep better knowing you cost him hundreds of dollars.
5) Stop drinking.
it's always hard to let go at a beginning of a breakup. especially for me, since im the kind of person that can't let go of the past, and always trying to hang on to something just bc i spent x amount of time with them and didnt want it to go to waste. but you know what? life is a learning experience and nothing is wasted unless you try to hold on to something that was already gone. and sometimes you end up making plans with an ex for the sake of trying to be friends, or maybe to string them along the sidelines in case you meet an asshole who treats you worse so you can always go back to the ex. i've never been friends with any of my exes because it's just weird and alot harder to move on. but sometimes you just gotta cut all ties. out of sight out of mind. what you dont see/hear/read won't hurt you...hang in there buddy!
Mike,
I am a female and I do not take offense to what you said about females. Mainly because it is true. Most females are that way. From a female point of view, yes you need to let her go. it is going to hurt like hell. I promise you one day you will be stronger for it. We have chatted before and I can tell you are a very nice guy who does have feelings. And god knows there are way to many females who will take advantage of all they can. It is human nature. It can not be changed. Love is Pain and Pain is part of Life. we must experience these emotions to live. In the end it makes you who you are. And you Mike J are a damn good guy. As for the text messages you are getting from him. i would type her a letter and mail it to her in her name with out a return address on it. That way she opens it and not him. See where that gets him. Now if ya want to get down and dirty with some not so nice ways to pay him back. You know how to reach me.
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Move on, hard to do, but move on.
Preach it brother. I find women to be like classic muscle cars... no I don't know where I'm going with this I already had too many beers and was thinking about waxing my balls so I can have rad nads and... oh look, a penny!
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